I'd like to preface this post with the fact that I don't even want to be writing it. I'm tired of all these "rules" and record keeping and I just want to be.
I've spent a couple weeks being not so careful because I was just sick of everything. I feel cruddy (cruddier than usual) and I'm ready to get back on track. It's a new track this time. I spent a really long time following a path I was hoping would work and no matter how much I tried to make it work, I've come to see I just don't want to be on that path anymore. So I'm done.
For now there will be no more documentation. No more pictures or food tracking. No more micromanaging or obsessing. No more measuring or weighing.
I'm going to keep track of my water intake, my supplements and my intermittent fasting. Anything else, I can no longer be bothered with.
I've started eating more probiotics and raw vegetables and will continue to do that daily. Once again I'm back to grain-free (I took a couple weeks off—no wheat though—and it just doesn't agree with me on a consistent basis. I need to be grain-free), sugar-free (I took off time from this too and as awesome as the food tastes, it does nothing for my body, my attitude or my overall well-being), dairy free (apart from heavy whipping cream, kefir and Kerrygold), and fruit-free (once I start, I just can't seem to stop, so why bother with the tempt?)
So while it seems there are more rules, or at least the same rules, I don't really view it that way. I got carried away in the last couple weeks with the fact that I realized I had the power to make the wrong choices, and then I decided to make them. This time I know I can make them and I'm choosing not to. It's always a choice. I'm choosing to re-eliminate the foods that make me feel shitty (even though a lot of aspects of that lifestyle haven't necessarily worked for weight loss yet) and I'm also choosing to not obsess over it anymore. There will be an in-between that works for me. I just need to not try so hard to find it.
