Treat Day Saturday.

I've decided to make my cheat day's relatively clean. Okay, not clean clean, but cleaner. No gluten at least. No HFCS. No partially hydrogenated oils. No artificial colors or flavors. No frivolous dairy. These things notoriously make me sick and it takes days to recover from them. By the time I'm feeling 100% again, cheat day has come back around again. So, today is going to be calculated cheats in hopes of this next week being more tolerable than last week.

I've also hit that low phase where my energy is lacking and I generally just feel blah, as my body acclimates to the food I'm eating again. So I'm just trying to chug along and stay strict to my routine and wait for it to pass. And it will pass. Eventually. Silver-lining girl has been hard to summon this week. Some days I've had to just trust in the routine and ignore all else.

Today, I'm trying to enjoy the little things. Like seeing the look on my sweet girl's face as I sneak her a bite of my Häagen-Dazs.

8:30am
glass of grapefruit juice

9am
three eggs scrambled*
three gluten and dairy free pancakes

2pm
hamburger*
lentils with kerrygold
sauteed cauliflower and broccoli
olive tortilla chips (I bought these on a whim. The bag is smallish compared to regular chips and I liked that they were pretty clean. They are phenomenal!)

3pm
bowl of Häagen-Dazs chocolate peanut butter ice cream


4:30pm
corned beef and cabbage*
bowl of ice cream (C'mon! How else will I finish the pint today?)

8:15pm
5 dates (I was impatient with my huge-ass sweet potato that took forever to cook. I went through the ingredients of all the Halloween candy and everything had things on my "no" list, so I opted for these instead.)

8:30pm
two burgers*
lentils with kerrygold
sweet potato with kerrygold

9:30pm
rest of the Häagen-Dazs

1am
cottage cheese with a tiny amount of coconut extract
1/2 of a small banana (I would have eaten the whole thing, but it wasn't that good.)
1/2 cup of a raisin and dry roasted peanut mix**

Yep. It's 1am. Yep—I'm still awake.

I could not eat. But hey, where's the fun in that?!

**Apparently there would have been a lot of fun in that. After three or four peanuts I came to see the peanuts have MSG in them and so I didn't eat anymore; I tried to substitute it with something—anything—else that sounded even remotely good, yet nothing actually tasted good. Even the "clean" cashews tasted of rancid cottonseed oil. My sense of taste has become that keen. So I've given up. We had a good run, Cheat Day. Apparently Sunday did not want to lend itself to more food.

I'll drink some more water, put my sick kid back in bed and then go to bed myself.

eta at 2am:
Oh my gosh, I feel awful. Those one bites of five random foods really did me in. I felt great all day and now this. Ugh. Something else to learn and do better on next time. See you next week.

*super enzyme x4